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LITERARY PSYCHIATRY Table of Contents   
Year : 2008  |  Volume : 50  |  Issue : 1  |  Page : 70
As I lie sleepless this night……

Asst. Prof.of Psychiatry at M.E.S. Medical College, Perintalmanna, Kerala, India

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Raghuram T M. As I lie sleepless this night……. Indian J Psychiatry 2008;50:70

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Raghuram T M. As I lie sleepless this night……. Indian J Psychiatry [serial online] 2008 [cited 2021 Sep 24];50:70. Available from:

……….I remember and envy the hapless ones
who curl on pavements
sans blanket sans quilt
in the cold night and still
manage to snore away without a care;

……….I listen to the whispers
of the December wind
to the trembling leaves
and the cricket's musical messages,
to rue over my apologies
that fall in a heap
at my beloved's slumbering ear;

………..I listen to my own words boomerang,
hover persistent around the bedstead,
words that escaped my grasp
like mischievous moths
to taunt me, haunt me for life;

………..I revisit battle scenes
where I was the vanquished,
yet cringe in shame
at crimes uncommitted,
my sword of retribution
still in its scabbard rusting;

…………I savour those ephemeral ecstasies,
wishing it were endless
and begin planning, preparing
for greater ecstasies tomorrow;

…………I recall long lost souls,
their good deeds, loving smiles,
pledging to myself
atonement for forgetting them
just at the right moment;
As I lie sleepless for hours on end
counting the strokes of heartless time,
Slumber slowly envelopes my tired self
like a tearful mother pulling the sheets
over a punished child
sobbing in his sleep,
she, determined never to be punitive
and he, perhaps dreaming
never to hurt her again…..

Correspondence Address:
T M Raghuram
Asst. Prof.of Psychiatry at M.E.S. Medical College, Perintalmanna, Kerala
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Source of Support: None, Conflict of Interest: None

DOI: 10.4103/0019-5545.39766

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NOTE: Dr. Raghuram is well known as an Indo-Anglian poet and has to his credit three published volumes of poetry. This poem is one of his recent creations.